From the recordings Burning Lullabies and I10 Eastbound
The story of staring down the road and being terrified of what comes next. The on again-off again ex girlfriend has contacted Charlie about meeting up and he is scared of what lies beyond it. Exhausted from working, life on the road and from not being able to sleep from being so nervous over the girl, Charlie stares down the road petrified while he contemplates going or not, trying to think clearly about what he should do. While trying to think logistically his emotions get the best of him. Charlie lies throughout the story saying he is excited to see her, but there is much much more underneath it. The overwhelming emotion over the subject and this girl lead him to do irrational and unethical things. Having Charlie question who he is as he breaks his morals that mean so much to him and his character as he sees himself. Because of this he begins to wonder if there is something inherently poisonous of the ties that bind the two of them. As the fear of this grows, Charlie is torn between wanting to never see her again and wanting to spend the rest of his life with her, leading a struggle between his head and his heart.
Lyrics
I lay my head with circles on my eyes
And a few futile prayers of getting rest or getting goodbyes
And I found someone amazing I had to do what I never thought I could do
Said I'd love her forever, I turned around and I left her just mainly just cause she ain't you
And these days I'm playing a little more than just dinner crowds
And I'm dropping every hit that I am allowed
Holding on to hope that we'll work things out
And I'm counting down the minutes till I'm I10 Eastbound
Vast delusions, feeling faded, draw your conclusions I know you've been waiting
I've been lugging these guitars in and out of old bars but your memory's too heavy to carry
Making changes, gettin' older, before my time has come my eyes just get colder
I'm using again, drinking you in, but us walking contradictions always vary
And these days I'm playing a little more than just dinner crowds
And I'm dropping every hit that I am allowed
Holding on to hope that we'll work things out
And I'm counting down the minutes till I'm I10 Eastbound
And these days I'm playing a little more than just dinner crowds
And I'm dropping every hit that I am allowed
Holding on to hope that we'll work things out
And I'm counting down the minutes till I'm I10 Eastbound